I won! Ok... just about everyone won SOMETHING. Pens, golf balls, shirts, hats, tote bags, organizers, notepads, and one special person got an ipod touch... I won a shirt. Size XL.
When a co-worker asked what I won, I responded, "A shirt that would only fit me if I dropped a hundred pounds."
He replied, "There's your incentive!"
My manager approached me and offered to get me a different prize because she knew the shirt wouldn't fit. In a matter of 5 minutes, it felt like my entire department knew exactly how fat I am. I sat and stared at my computer, trying to look busy, as I mentally fought away the tears that wanted to come.
There it is folks... the straw that broke the camel's back.
I've been called a professional dieter by family members. I always seem to be doing one thing or another. I've tried every fad diet that came around the corner: Atkins, South Beach, Weight Watchers, Hoodia, Slim Quick, Slim Fast, Low Carb, No Carb, Acai Berry suppliment, water pills, Dexatrim, Pregnancy (yes, I lost weight while pregnant).... the list goes on and on.
The one thing these all have in common is that none of them worked. Why? Each diet plan has it's own benefit, but it isn't my eating and exercise habits that need to change alone... there's something going on in my heart and head. I need to fix the underlying problems that led to my obesity in the first place. Sure, I could go get my stomach stapled, but that won't fix the problem. I've seen too many people who have taken the weight off only to put it back on again.
I need to fix my brain.
I'm inviting you on the journey as I attempt to fix what has been broken. Once I do that, I'll be on the road to healthy living.
Will you join me??
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